Friday, January 22, 2010

You Need People Like ME..

...sitting in a fancy restaurant, with people of a higher class around him, people who dont understand his struggle, people whay to good for him. Those born in America, probably they were doctors, lawyers or accountants. Maybe even very honnest hard workers, but they were all successful at this point, forgeting where they came from, you could smell the snobness in the air.. He was eating, drinking a bit too much, and having a dispute with his wife and his best friend, he stands up violently, fighting gravity, trying to make a point while almost knocking everything over, he yelled:"You need people like me, so u can point your fingers & say THATS THE BAD GUY. So what does that make you? Good?"

For a very long time, i related alot in my own way to this 1983 (wink wink) movie: SCARFACE. With my goals of achieving things on my own, standing up to people who, anyone in their right mind wouldnt dare, i was on a mission. That mission adapted, changed, left me and many in debts, regrets and wasted youth. I achieved mostly guilts, a shameful past, and maybe i'll stay unforgiven by many.

At one point, I tried to open up a studio, starting with promoting it with a clothing line, (thats another story for another time.)(maybe another time). So i invested hours and hundreds, designing a website that doesnt exist anymore, and Tshirts with the saying: U NEED PEOPLE LIKE ME ! (like the lil shrimp in shark tail said: "true story..") What do i have out of it? well i sold enough shirts (did i mention i designed them myself? ) to cover the cost... but i have a box of maybe 100 left... with a www.MyFAILEDstudioSITE.com on it.


... U DIDNT BELIEVE ME EH ? ... well im sitting actually writing this IN  that shirt, my EXHAUST super baggy ORANGE jogging pants and a hoodie..(..super comfy) thinking: WHAT A FAIL !!


BUT, you need to know something.

I wouldnt know whats a good thing, what is honesty, what is hard work, what is dedication loyalty hope supportmotivationfailuresuccesspotentialperseverancepainandjoy !!! ....(pause for breath..) if I havent gone throu that... ok i guess i couldve made better choices way earlier..

And heres where im goin to start to conclude.. ( i <3 how i put this) thers a guy i just met, and talked to a few instances, who has potential and the right heart.. He's extremely social and has a great vision. I truly understand him and i'll try to support him as much as i can.
He has an amazing clothing company just takin off. www.soStandOut.com

He doesnt, know im doing this, and i feel ashamed i didnt buy any shirts from them yet.. hopefully I'll be forgiven for that one. (i accept free Tshirts also..... ok im pushin it :p )
".. life is not perfect, and it realistically will never be. We will all have our ups and downs, but you just have to make the very best of it and do it with an open mind and an accepting heart. Sometimes it’s terrifying and sometimes it’s incredibly beautiful. "  (just a little snippet from the website, how can you not want to have a shirt now?)

I have failed in the past, and people liked it, they love to see me fail, ........so they can point their big fat fingers at me and say: THATS THE BAD GUY ! THATS THE GUY THAT FAILED !! .. and ill tell them... You... NEED people like me......


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